Monday, 26 May 2014

They aren't just running shoes ...

A thought came to mind when I was cleaning out the laundry today.

How many running shoes does a bloke need? 

Each pair tells stories of pain and success and getting out there when I was too tired and rain storms and 40deg days and exploring new trails and seeing new sights and races run and finished against difficult odds and beating personal bests - and then getting out next week to do it all over again - and finding new friends and tears over leaving others behind (or saying goodbye forever) and Dad's heart attack and hard decisions at work and learning more about myself and just when I thought I couldn't go on, finding one more step and another, and ... and ...  

They aren't just running shoes. They are way, way more ...

Monday, 5 May 2014

We had hoped - a reflection on doubt and burning hearts


It happens every now and then.
The mist clears, the fog lifts a little
the light is brighter, and the words on the page make sense
Sometimes there is a warmth in our hearts that says, 
‘I want more of this’
‘I want to stay in this place, and bask in this light and feel this sense of understanding.’

‘Our hearts burn within us.
YES it is true. It is clear. It makes sense.’

Those moments make sense because of those other moments.
or days.
Where nothing is clear.
Where there is doubt and fear and unbelief
and not knowing if any of it is true.

Not that we know it is untrue
but we are just not sure or clear or ...

Emmaus (Luke 24, The Bible) is a gentle reminder that both of these are true and real;
The doubt and the clarity.
In fact all those resurrection appearances are based on this.
Mary, Thomas, Cleopas and his friend
None believed; could believe; were ready to believe.

For them, this dream was all over. Finished. No more.
They had hoped. Past tense.
This One, this Jesus, they had heard his preaching - heard him explain God like no one had ever before.
Somehow through him, blind people had been able to see again, lame people walk, the friendless find company, and people who had died were again alive, a gift of life for their families.

There was something very different about this man. 
A freshness like nothing they had experienced, in the way he talked, and lived.
Maybe, certainly, this was the one through whom the hopes of our parents would become alive.

We had hoped. Past tense
We had hoped, and now we don’t.
We have stopped hoping and stopped our habit of hoping.

Mary, Thomas, Cleopas and his friend.

Giving up hope feels tired and sad.
It is easy to imagine these two walking down the road
heads bowed, shoulders slumped, short steps, feet dragging.
Talking about what’s happened, trying to make sense out of it.

It’s all very well for others to make up stories of seeing Jesus.
That didn’t make sense either.

That sense of hopelessness is real for many.
Even for many in church today.
When we say a creed that begins, “I believe”
some will want to shout it out.
others will want to put a question mark after it.

There is room in the story for Mary, Thomas, Cleopas and his friend
and there is room in this place for those who feel doubt, who have lost hope.

This story doesn’t fix that doubt.
But it encourages the search, the looking, the exploring – and a glimpse of hope.

Jesus appears to them.
And they don’t recognise him
He talks with them
And they still don’t recognise him.
They invite him into their home
And they still don’t recognise him

And then,
that moment.

Bread is broken and shared
And all that had happened before
All that heart-burning made sense.
and suddenly their eyes see what their hearts had felt along that road.

Just as their doubt was real, so now is that joy.
From “We had hoped” (past tense) to "Stay with us” to Recognition.

Welcome, and hospitality, opens a new story. 
A new way of seeing the stories, of understanding God.

Those moments when our hearts are burning – those are the ones we want to tell others about.

And we choose which moment to live in.
that moment of doubt or hopelessness 
– or that moment of our hearts burning. 

Which of those stories will we live, which of those stories will we pursue further?

In this story, those who doubt are encouraged to keep looking
Those who are convinced, are encouraged to be convinced
Those who have seen something are encouraged to share it with others.


Emmaus – by Joy Cowley
On that day of rain, I walked with You,
Seeing but not seeing You in wet trees,
Hearing but not hearing You
In the symphony of water sounds
Played by a flooded stream.
You were everywhere and yet closer
Than the sanctuary of my umbrella,
Closer than a misted breath.
I didn’t need to ask who You were
For my heart burned with recognition.
Fearing that I would lose You,
I cried, “Oh Lord, come home with me!”
You smiled through the dancing rain,

The puddles, the grey fence posts,
And You whispered, “Ah! I am already there.” 


Sunday, 27 April 2014

Peace, ANZAC day ... and a bit of Thomas

Peace be with you.

Jesus stood among them –
Doubters,
Deny-ers,
Run-away-ers,
Watchers.

Those with
Grief,
Fear,
Loss,
Pain.

Peace be with you.

Then again
Peace be with you
And
I am sending you

To…
Forgive
To be peace-givers
Peace-keepers
Peace-makers

To…
Seek peace,
Find it.
Give peace,
Receive it.

Jesus stands among us
Doubters,
Deniers
Run-away-ers
Watchers.

Those who live Anzac day,
(“Lest we forget”)
And those who do not want to remember.

Those with
Grief
Fear
Pain
Loss.

Peace be with you.

And we are sent.
Look others in the eye.
“Peace be with you.”

To …
Forgive
And forgive
And forgive
And
see the scars … of the world
Touch them with love
Find faith
And speak faith
And peace

In God’s breathing,
In The Spirit

Peace be with you.

Sunday, 20 April 2014

Just showing up - and Resurrection

Mary.

He called her by name
– and she knew the voice, the friend who had spoken.
It wasn’t just that he knew her name
– it was that he knew her.

From grief
to utter confusion to tenderness.
From being alone
to being known, called, remembered. 
Mary Magdalene showed up.
A woman whom, we are told, Jesus had freed from 7 demons.
And she expressed her thanks
by showing up again, and again.

Mary knew the agony of grief.
No doubt she knew about the betrayal
the denial
the running away.
She showed up in the hardest parts of the story;
She was there at the foot of the cross with Jesus’ mother.
She was there when they placed his body in the cave
She was there when they rolled the stone in front of it.
Mary knew about violence and pain and grief and loneliness.
Whatever her demons had been, this was real too.

Friday, we too stood at this cross
as we placed sprigs of lavender and rosemary
in prayer for others.
Some came with tears, and others in hope
or in despair or desperation or a quiet stillness.
To follow Jesus is to stand at the cross,
In the midst of evil and suffering.
To be present to it.
To weep for ourselves and for others.
For mothers murdered in front of their children in our own city
For children stabbed by their fathers in places where we holiday
For families ripped apart by war
… and then ripped apart again as they seek refuge among us.
To weep for and stand with people who need to be freed from whatever demons or addictions or illness may hold them.
That’s Mary’s discipleship.
Because that’s where God shows up.


And then, like Mary, to show up
the next day
and the next.
Maybe not sure why …
except just to be present, to pray.

Mary showed up at the tomb,
expecting that this violence,
this tragedy
would continue.
It was after the Sabbath
when she sees the empty cave.
Someone has taken His body …
More grief, more agony, more tears.
She still runs back to Peter;
‘They have taken him, and we don’t know…’

There is a hurry to get to the tomb …
minds and hearts racing.
One looks … maybe afraid to go in.
Peter goes straight inside.
Seeing only the linen wrappings lying there
they walk home.
The hurry is over.

Mary shows up, again.
Back to the tomb. Again.
Maybe not sure why.
But that is Mary’s discipleship.

And then ...

"Mary"

Her name on his breath.
Spoken in a way that only he could.
With all the knowing
and all the tenderness
and all the care of the one who knew
all about her demons …
and knew her free of them.

Three have seen the empty tomb …
One stops for longer
to be named,
to be called,
to be known.

We also have inklings, glimpses,
things that take our breath away.
Moments when resurrection says, “a new thing is happening.”
hours where we know we believe more than anything else
that
Christ is risen.
And that, like Mary we can turn up.

And in those glimpses, those inklings,
our name is on his resurrected breath
inviting us to belong
inviting us to participate.
Here
Now
with his name on our breath.

And when we, like Mary Magdalene show up in the place of pain
and violence
and evil
and suffering,
We also stand in the place of …resurrection.
And with his name on our breath
We say
“death is not the last word.
Violence is not the last word.
Hate is not the last word.
Money is not the last word.
Intimidation is not the last word.
Political power is not the last word.
Condemnation is not the last word.
Betrayal and failure are not the last word.
No: each of them are left like rags in a tomb,

And from that tomb,
Arises Christ,
Alive.” *

Christ is risen.
He is risen. 
Indeed!

++++++++++++++++++++++ 

My thanks to Arnie Weiringa, Jennie Gordon (http://greaterfarthantongueorpen.wordpress.com/),

Sunday, 13 April 2014

Who is this? (Palm Sunday and a Baptism)

Several years ago I joined my sister for a church service in Japan.  It was December and Winter – a white Christmas was to follow. I was in a country where I didn’t understand the language, let alone the street signs. In church that Sunday, I had no idea what was being said or sung or prayed.  But when a young woman came forward, knelt at the front and was baptised – I knew exactly what was happening.  Matthew 28.19 was being lived out and this young person was being welcomed into my family. Our family.

Angels and people hold their breath in awe as another person is baptised and welcomed into this huge, complex family: Baptised into the family of Jesus Christ, the church of God that expresses its life, witness and service in every corner of the world, ever since that first Christmas, that first Palm Sunday, Good Friday, that first Resurrection day and first Pentecost.

So today, Sarah is both this tiny dot in a very large ocean of people, AND the centre of attention of God’s people. 

Baby Sarah.  Who is she?
Obviously a daughter, Grand-daughter and niece and cousin.

Cutie, chatterbox, wriggler and giggler.

Her parents already know that she is the very best gift they have ever received … and the most frustrating human being in the universe.  They already know that she will grow to be a young woman with her own opinions and perspectives (Exclamation mark!!!).  They now know that a whole congregation has committed itself, with them, to raise her in Christian faith with them as parents.  And they know that they have done so on behalf of millions of others around the world.
Today, all around the world, Christians will celebrate Palm Sunday.  
They will do so in hundreds of different languages;
They will be out in the streets of their towns in South America in processions waving palm branches,
Hunkered down in cold cathedrals as spring starts to make its presence felt in Northern Europe,
Sweating in mud-brick buildings in Kenya,
Or speaking in quiet voices in lounges or cellars in Turkey
-       all of them joining in a huge chorus of voices singing “Hosanna”. 

This is the family that Sarah has been baptised into.

These people will also join us as we step tentatively into this week, the days leading up to Good Friday and Easter Sunday, to listen again to the stories;
of Mary and perfume and anointing;
of washing feet and love;
of bread broken and wine poured;
of Judas and betrayal;
of Peter and denial;
of a garden and light and darkness and whips and spears and crosses and nails and … that final, chilling cry, “It is finished”.

They too will hold their breath … or go about their daily tasks with that nagging hope that the story isn’t over.

And then.
And then on Sunday, many will rise early and, still half asleep, slope again into cathedrals and mud huts and on beaches and lake-fronts and lounges to hear the astounding story of an empty tomb and resurrection and Mary and Peter … and “yes it is true”. Life has triumphed over death; hate can never defeat love.  They will join their voices with millions of others around the world and over centuries to shout “He is Risen; Christ is risen indeed.”

This is the beginning of Holy Week – the Holiest of weeks – the week that this Christian faith is all about – the one central story that binds us together around the world and through many centuries.
“This week is the most beautiful and the most important of the Church’s year. It is the drama of our salvation and our life. It is also a week of profound renewal. We renew our baptismal life because we see again the battle that God in Christ wins against all the powers of darkness and destruction in our world and in our lives. We know that our baptism makes us participators in his victory and so we have the courage to follow him on his journey and to contemplate the mystery of his love for us.” prayasyougo

This is the story that Sarah was baptised into.

All around the world in churches, some will be here for the first time, hearing the story fresh and new.  Others will hear it for the hundredth time.  And wherever the story is retold and relived there are tears, and anger and a wondering. "Would I be Peter or Judas or Thomas or Mary?"

Some who gather will mumble and doubt and puzzle, and wonder if they will be back next year.  But they said that last year too, and something … something in the story brought them back ... a whispering and a nagging that somehow nothing else has come as close to making any sense of the mess that they see around them.  Their doubt is carried by love and community and someone else’s faith and curiosity and a flicker of … maybe, just maybe …

And in all the stories is this one remarkable man.  Jesus goes to Jerusalem knowing that this will probably mean his death.  And the city is abuzz. This royal, political, religious city and its people ask the question, “Who is this?”  And the crowd, who come from the country and other towns and nations, the crowds reply, as if with one voice, “This is the prophet Jesus from Nazareth in Galilee.”

In this week, of all weeks, we are reminded that God’s way is not our way. We expect to see celebrity and superhero. But the way of this One is not about force or coersion or power.  In Jesus Christ we see God in a different way; a way of humility and powerlessness – and yet of immense strength and love. It is what someone would later call “the foolishness of the cross”. His is a love so deep and strong and free that it can hold all doubt and fear and hopelessness. He is even prepared to take on death – the ultimate power.  

And then?  Then comes resurrection – not a logical conclusion or predictable outcome – but a mystery, an ultimate victory and God’s greatest act - in Jesus.

Humility, Death, Resurrection

Faith, hope and love.

Who is this?

This is the One into whom Sarah has been baptised;

Joining this family, to live this story, and to follow this Jesus Christ.